Some of you may have noticed that I am, indeed, back online. And my first post after coming back is an apology.
The last time I was online here, I said some terrible, hurtful things that didn't need to be said. I also acted like a child and made an imbecile of myself, which earned a great deal of hatred from nearly everyone on this site. I deeply regret what I've said and done from the last time I was online in a way that I cannot put into words, and no explanation of my actions or excuse on my part will rectify this. I can only apologize for what was said, even if my apology is not accepted, even if my apology is scoffed at.
I apologize most to Nahaji. I had the insolence to demand something of you like a bratty child demanding something from a parent, and continued with insults that should never be made to anyone.
This brings me to my next apology, to Nami. I have also made insults to you, and if I could take back every single letter written, I would do so.
And I apologize to all of my friends, and peers, and acquaintances. I said terrible, hurtful things that have caused you all to change your opinions of me. I could not take these things back two months ago, and so you all must settle for this humble apology.
I also recently allowed my anger to spill over again in private messages to four of you upon my return. I must also apologize to the four of you: Nami, Ka Takai, Dominic Edrick, and Nahaji Sankuro again. None of the things said should have been said, and it is an indirect insult to you all that I am even online right now, even while writing this apology.
I have disgraced myself, and I don't know if anyone will accept me here any more, much less this apology. But I make it, just the same. I don't know if I could contribute to this site. Would anyone want to roleplay with a person so despicable? Would anyone want to even look at applications made by someone so childish? All I can do is hope that some of you still look at me as something of a friend, instead of some spoiled child, or a common, slow-witted, low-brow Neanderthal.
And I'm sorry that this apology is too long.